Perspective

When I was in Premiere (Grade 11) reviewing all the texts we had studied during the year in preparation for my French oral I decided I was not keen on Les Fables de La Fontaine... I decided that I wld not really review those. But right then and then I KNEW that I would have to present one of those texts during the exam. Still I didn't revise them. The day of the exam, the examiner had my list and flipped over page one (The Fables were on that page) and then flipped over the second, and the third and when it got to the fourth page... She came back to the first. Luckily for me she picked the one fable I knew fairly well from class...

Then there are those moments in life when we make a decision and SOMETHING inside you already knows that the repercussions of such decisions may not be ideal -far from it even- and yet we choose to ignore it...

Well the same applies to the Silver Surfer affair. I knew I was at risk of developing feelings despite my better judgement. Still, I went ahead...

Car le cœur a ses raisons que la Raison ne connaît point...

In hindsight, there were many signs which I chose to ignore. It is obviously less difficult to make connections between things that have already come to past.

The signs I could probably attribute to instinct or foresight, but I have not learnt to trust the former while the latter is a bit tricky predict. It involves assessing a set of 'variables' before you and attempting to predict how they will evolve while possibly with each other but also within a particular context. As for the context, it will be altered by elements we cannot control.

So right now I am left with these feelings, which I've deprived of their raison d'être... They are funny, these feelings, they appear out of nowhere and they just grow --at times even in 'inhospitable' territory. They will certainly wither away with time... Or so I hope...