...Not quite thinking about the Christian myth version of it... more like a Twilight Zone reality!Those years where I was no longer a kid but not yet an adult are behind -officially, over a decade behind- but the actual feeling of inadequacy prevails...
Right now I feel trapped in a warp zone... Most of my friends in my age group (even those a few years younger), are settling into 'full-fledged' adulthood... getting married, buying a house, having kids...
I am not quite there yet but the current job situation (or absence thereof) is making me nervous and is somehow contributing to some self-doubt!
But then I have to remind myself that looking back at the 31 years that have been my life (minus those early-childhood years where nobody really remembers anything), I can say that I have never really burnt the steps of life at the same pace of the majority of my peers... Historically, I've tended to do things when the time is right for me...
Strangely enough knowing that does not make me feel particularly cosy inside right now...
I could do with some diversion but not the meaningless type... This is the point where my travels work against me... Right now I wouldn't mind living in the same city as most of my high school and uni friends...
But then again, what are the odds they'd be free? They are after all likely to be part of those friends settling down, getting married, buying a house and having kids...
This is one of those you can't win!
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