I am more concerned with lighter aspects of my life... those related to my extra curricular activities. The means through which I am conducting the experiment that is my self-discovery would certainly fail to gain the seal of approval of more conservative strata of society.
But I am finding the whole experience particularly enlightening and delightful in oh so many ways!
I am still seeing the Silver Surfer as my friend kindly baptised him! We meet every few weeks for dinner, some kind of social event and then we have a sleep over... For a moment there I thought I was developing some kind of romantic feelings but I think I was just feeling a bit overwhelmed by the stress and frustration related to work...
And I am lucky to have friends who care and look out for me...
They keep telling me to beware and not to waste my time. They are concerned that I could fall in love and that I could end up getting hurt... and falling in love indeed a possibility... ONE in a realm of many! To put their minds at ease -and perhaps also to convince myself of it - I tell them that I have been accepting invitations from other guys, keeping the door to other possibilities WIDE open.
As for Time, it is only wasted if I agree with the normalised idea that I have to meet specific milestones on a particular schedule that falls into what has been determined as appropriate by society... And therein lies the answer, for last I checked I have no schedule to keep. Indeed:
Life unfolds at its own pace for better or worse!
However I must admit that all this questioning about feelings has made me wonder whether my decisions and attitudes are a product of ME or whether the ME is a product of decisions I believe I ought to take in order to create this ME I believe I should be... I know it is a bit convoluted... I think I won't go there... at least not just yet!
The above paragraph notwithstanding, o thing is certain, believe it or not I am learning to go with my gut which does not come as second nature to me!
I, when in doubt, ask only one question: does it make me happy? :o)
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